Thursday, April 29, 2004
Yesterday seemed blurry to me..... everything when fast...it hit me so fast that i am still unclear of what happened...till now.Hmmmmm....
We smsed as usual yesterday, up till when we're about to settle in. We cancelled our date this Saturday cause something cropped up....I was okay with it....then a couple more smses gave me this feeling that she's retreating back to her safe haven for which I fully understand.....the past few weeks, it was kinda turbulent for the both of us, i must admit. The whirlwind of emotions did left us stranded gasping for air and for that i did not fault her for what she's doing right now.
Smsed her today, still waiting for a reply from her.....Right now I'm in school am facing a pile of unmarked Maths Workbook corrections and yet I'm typing this entry...hahaha....ah humbargh!.......
Later today, my dad had instructed me to help.....out with some mincing,dicing and skinning to prepare for a wedding lunch...hahahaha......so sorry if i can't join you guys for some TEHraphy and some Satellitism.....later aights.
*~I remember the days together, is it fated or was i dreaming......~*
|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 7:58 PM|
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Wednesday, April 28, 2004
On free today, had a chat with a fellow collegue on how teaching life was for her and mine which is still at the strating line or chould i say the dresing room...ehehehe she went to my friendster's page, saw my army pic and exclaimed " Eh you are half the size as you are now!" hahahahahhaa....damn! I know i have been adding the kilos......am trying hard to lose em' somehow i have this feeling that I will start losing in NIE....PE 'beb
We have been smsing constantly eversince we first met...somewhere in early March. A good sign? I do surely hoped so. It funny to understand the human pscyhe.
Argh! the bell just rang.........Scoot to class!!!!!
|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 2:33 AM|
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Sunday, April 25, 2004
Went out with her after school....had a blast walking from PS, down to Macdonald's house and back down to town.....went to borders and saw the new getup kids CD.....was tempted to buy......but had to ditch the notion coz of budget constraints hahahahahaha.....crappy......Fuwah the next 2 months will be toight for me financially coz i need to pay off for my driving lessons....haahahaha well there is always the next month.
A trip down to Shenton Way yesterday was very calming. I do not know why I have this fascination over that place. Maybe its the river or the emptiness the night brought along to that place.
Got back home......and went to Swensen's with mum and me sisters....had loads of fun.......espcially with my baby sis around...hahahaha....scratched the car at the carpark....only showed how bad a driver i am...hahahahaha
Met Bach and family over at Swensen's and ouh bach,....Kakak aku cakap: " Eh tu bach punya tunang......wah orang putih ah?" hahahahahaha.......hope that sounds like a compliment to you.........
I am hoping today would be a slower paced than yesterday...........
|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 1:40 AM|
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Thursday, April 22, 2004
Received a call from a fellow bunkmate during my time as a trainee in P3(SMM). At first we were both awkward coz we know the reason why he called caused i smsed him to furnish me with the details of my fren's demise.
We started off slow......updating ourselves on what we have been doing since we last met. He then told me what happened and how my fren met his Creator. It was sad...to a point of breaking down i tell you. Hmmmmm.....
I spend most of my time in school......recollecting back memories during our 3 months together. He slept right across me. I remembered we celebrated together, my birthday and he obtained his riding licence. Aw shucks the good ol' days.
Yunos, Combat Medic Platoon 3 (P001-00)........Wait for me aight....I'll see you on the otherside....soon. Insya-Allah
|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 9:39 AM|
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Wednesday, April 21, 2004
Got home...pretty fast today, dunno why...eventhough i am supposed to be fazed by the death of my friend, i was riding pretty reckless today.....
She was pretty concerned over me....so nice of her.....somehow...sometimes i think that i am causing concerns over me is pretty selfish....on my account. Sorry yah!.......but kinda hold onto her words though..that life is indeed fragile and the best way for us, is to move on...it's just that i have lost 6 friends due to road traffic accidents......thats pretty bad..on the way home I had this thought of how many more i'm gonna lose my friends this way...sheesh....the feeling is crappy.
My day was pretty looooooong, and to have a 2 phonecalls in a space of 3 hours...bearing the deaths of my friend.. and the wife of another friend can really give you a downer day.........Aww! Shucks! enough of these......Hope tommorow's bring good news to me like....RAHMAT GOT HIMSELF....HIS SOULMATE....hahahahaha *wink**wink*.......tul tak bach, mang,jjib, rusdi?
|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 6:55 AM|
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Life's fucking fragile!..............
So fucken cherish it........and fucken treasure it while it last!
To those who think that their life SUCKED...prolly i fucken agree to fucken that statement, for you don deserve to fucken live......
I'd gladly change your life for the demises of my 2 acquaintances for they fucken so much so deserved it.
I am not going against HIS Will for I believe that HE loves my frens more. What I cannot FUCKEN stand are views and 'ouh I hate my LIFE cause it SUCKS!' laments of people nowadays. So if this entry fucken strikes you in the fucken chord.....i'm so fucken glad it did!
|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 2:19 AM|
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Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Arrived home pretty late...basically i'm the last to leave the school *sheesh* talk about a 13 hour shift. i was in school from 6.30a.m till 7.45 just now...got no OT somemore...hahahahahahah
She got me listening this Who's Batang...new single....the reason.....it's kinda nice.....kinda downy,wishy,washy tune but oh no.....no song now gonna kick my Kylie's outta my head *hint* *hint*....hahahahahha
Don't think i wanna stay up today.....planning to hit the sack by 1030........ZzzZZzzZZzz...
Off to fight the ZzzZZ Mongsters!
|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 6:49 AM|
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Monday, April 19, 2004
I am not supposed to do this......I am supposed to be marking the piles upon piles of work........hahahha.....come to think of it, a 'free' period supposedly means that you are free..correct...but noooooooo, i have to cover a period for a teacher.....hehehehe..not that i'm complaining, its just the oxymoronic world we live in.....that never fails to put a smile.
Argh Humbargh!..........Off to relief a class now!!!!!......Zoooopeeday!
It sure beats the hell....for having the corner-end cubicle!
*~ There's a B-side to every story, if you decide to have some fun~*
|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 11:18 PM|
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Hmmm after a long hiatus here i am...more like laziness that is! hahaahahah. Here's a quick update...
Achieved most of what i've planned 10 years ago..and i did those before turning 25...Yeaaaaaaaaaay!
School's been great. Having fun with the kids literally....had a great class this year 3.9, swell behaviour and the thirst to learn! Life been fair to me...not complaining....still waiting entry to NIE *sheesh*.
Emotiionally, hmmmm.......this i'm still in a roller coaster. Had ups and downs though. But Roller coaster rides are supposed to be FUN ain't it? hahahha
Went out with her yesterday,went to White Sands. Kinda impromtu hahahah....but i had this calling to meet up with her though just to surprise her..i guess.....she had ice kachang and i got meself cheng teng (finally i noe what's it call, after seeing mat ate them in front of me). Being close with someone after a long absence do bring in some nice feelings....feelings i thought were dead and buried. Ouh yeah I get to see chow recruits, grimmed faces all and crisp green uniform taking the bus to the Ferry Terminal....brings back the goot ol' days! somehow i noticed. i have never went to the terminal with my frens and buddies. I was always alone.......loved that.
In school, things are brewing in the upper management. this july, 7 teachers are leaving which includes me i hope . 2 of them resigned. Fuah felt really bad....to resign from a job they hold so much passion for just because it had turned into something stressful with paperwork and such.I do wih them well.....gonna miss them...HECK gonna miss them all! hahahaha
Well things thats the new things that is happening so far...in my life....hehehehehe
*~ You make me dream your dreams......you make me scream your screams!~*
|the_ousted derelicts and a decadent at 6:25 AM|
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